Why Am I So Emotional After Explanting?
Deciding to go through with an explant is both a liberating and scary decision. It takes a toll on us emotionally and mentally, even if we are ready and sure about what we’re about to do.
Parting ways with our breast implants is a lot to process and come to terms with, especially if you aren’t yet in the place of loving and accepting your body (and breasts).
Recently inside my Breast Implant Illness Support Facebook Group, someone asked the question: “Was anyone super emotional the week prior to explant? I am four days out and I feel like a crazy woman! I cry unexpectedly, I’m super anxious and riding the emotional roller coaster. Hoping this is all normal?!”
This isn’t the first time I’ve seen posts like this, so I wanted to take some time to address this because I know how alarming it can be.
First off – yes! Crying spells and heightened emotions are totally normal, and in fact very common, after explanting.
Your body is releasing so many stored emotions that have been stuck in your energy centers for years.
Low vibrational frequencies like fear, guilt, shame, grief, vanity, apathy, and anger, if not processed will stick with you until you address them head on and move them out.
After you explant your body is doing a sort of shedding and cleansing – emotionally.
Let the tears flow. Cry hard. Feel the anger and guilt.
But the trick is to not dwell on these thoughts and e-motions (energy in motion) for more than 10 minutes.
Honor those feelings and thoughts, and then release them.
Don’t judge what’s coming up or try to shove them back down because you don’t want to feel uncomfortable.
You have to feel to heal. Feel it all… and then exhale and let it all go.
Next time you’re feeling sad and don’t understand where it’s coming from, repeat this mantra as your hands are in the praying position tucked under your chin:
“I honor these emotions coming up. I’m going to allow them to flow through me, as I sit here, without judgment, and process them. I feel you (sadness, anger, fear – whatever you’re feeling), but I must let you go.”
*exhale “These emotions aren’t serving me anymore, and I lovingly release you from my body.”
Say this mantra as many times as you need to.
Weeks might go by and then these emotions pop back up again. That’s ok and to be expected.
Find a quiet place to sit and come back to this mantra.
There are three phases we go through emotionally during the explanting journey:
First, the shock of it all and anxiously awaiting surgery.
“Why did I ever want these implants in the first place?”
“What if it’s not my implants making me sick?”
“What if I don’t get better?”
“I don’t know if I can wait four months to explant.”
Second, the excitement of the explant itself.
“I’m in pain but I feel so much better!”
“What do I look like?”
“Will my husband still be attracted to me?”
“I’m so happy I made it through surgery!”
Third, the detoxing and healing journey post-explant.
“Everyone else seems to be healing so much faster.”
“Is it normal to be experiencing x, y, z, after explant?”
“Is what I’m going through a detox reaction or flare up?”
Post explant is a good time to focus on your healing journey, and not get so caught up into how everyone else is healing and feeling.
Us women can be critical and impatient when it comes to how fast things are moving along. And then there’s the thing where we compare our breasts, healing journey, and body to others.
Just like anything on social media, most people only post when things are good. Very few post on the days they feel and look like “crap”. Same goes with healing post-explant.
From the time we discover Breast Implant Illness to well beyond our explant, expect:
- the high
- the lows
- the empowering thoughts
- the worries
- the doubts
- the fears
- the excitement of new possibilities
I mean, it’s like being on an emotional rollercoaster in the dark, not knowing what you’re going to experience at the turn ahead.
Going from happy, to anxiety and worry, to crying for no real reason as to why all within 15 minutes happens.
It’s totally normal to experience this, sister. You’re not alone and there’s nothing wrong with you.
Let it all out and have faith that your body is going through what it needs to in order for you to heal and detox, not only from toxins, but pent up emotions.
You’re a tough cookie and are allowed to have rough days. You’re human, not a robot.
My top 5 tips when you’re feeling extra emotional:
- soak in a bubble bath with lavender essential oil and visualize your body healing
- go for a walk and repeat healing mantras. “My body is healing and on my side.”
- journal out your emotions and thoughts
- communicate your thoughts and feelings to those you love who support you 🙋🏻
- go to YouTube, search “healing frequencies” and lie comfortably doing breathing exercises as you listen to them
Here are some quotes I think you’ll love:
“We repeat what we don’t repair” ~ Christine Langey-Obaugh
“She stood in the storm, and when the wind did not blow her way, she adjusted her sails.” ~ Elizabeth Edwards
“3 Routes To Healing: 1. You must let the pain visit. 2. You must allow it to teach you. 3. You must not allow it to overstay.” ~ ljeoma Umebinyuo
“Wounds don’t heal the way you want them to, they heal the way they need to. It takes time for wounds to fade into scars. It takes time for the process of healing to take place. Give yourself that time. Give yourself that grace. Be gentle with your wounds. Be gentle with your heart. You deserve to heal.” ~ Dele Olanubi
“When life feels heavy, and it’s as though your body is against you, allow more love and light to flow through you. Inhale peace and love, exhale worry and sorrow.”~ me
I hope this helped. XO
here’s to health, self-love and vibing high,
Breast Implant Illness Rejuvenation and Education with Christina
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